I've been sitting here for about 30 minutes trying to figure out what to type here. This is exactly why my domain has been on hiatus for almost a year. I don't know how to express myself in a blog! I was looking at my old blog and sitting there like DAMN, girl you are depressing! But hell, life is depressing. I get caught up in trying to give all of myself while being censored. Yeah, it makes no sense. Unlike my other websites in the past I'm not giving this URL to family and friends so I can pretend that I don't have to be guarded.....
Right now I'm looking to take a nap. I got about 2 hours of sleep this morning. It's impossible to take naps in my house because my Grandmother doesn't know the meaning of silence. The more time I spend with my Gram the more my heart grieves for my mother as a child. I can really see why my family is so screwed up. The matriarch of the family isn't one. That's another story though...
When I think about it
I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it
The less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here
And then, you disappear...